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The Effects of Divorce on Children
A personal autobiography of 3 siblings and each of their struggles

Including
A Collection of Poetry

By

Donna Newton




COPYRIGHT PAGE
Dedication


To
Paul, Sherlynn, Donna,
& offspring - Holly and Ashlynn

Introduction
This is a documentary of a how my parents divorce effected mine and my two siblings entire life. How it ultimately set me up to fail.. You will be able to witness
the self destruction before it happens. From a twelve year old stripper, a few small modeling shoots, and an extra in a couple of movies all by the age of sixteen, this taught me that my looks will carry my weight... no one told me my looks won't last forever...what happens now? Witness my biggest emotional struggle yet, Coming to terms with a difficult decision that I might have to move on to gain respect from my daughter.. ..and Becoming a mother myself! How can I teach a human being skill that I don't even have? Through many difference stages in my life after my parents divorce, I struggle to keep relationships with people whether it be family, friends, boyfriends, employers, teachers, fellow employees, and even my parents. The issues that I struggle with are emotional development, self doubt, and anger..I process my life experiences through my poetry, and my poems will have you laughing, crying, envious, sympathetic, and wanting to mother me...Our struggles continue!

First Poem Title
A Future for Us

IF THERE WERE NO YOU
THEN THERE WOULD BE NO ME
BECAUSE WHEN I THINK OF
US TOGETHER, AND OUR KIDS
MAYBE TWO OR THREE?.

I SEE THINGS SO CLEAR
AS I PLAN TO BE YOUR WIFE
PREPARING FOR A
CHERISHED JOURNEY
BECAUSE YOU COMPLETE
MY LIFE,

WORDS CAN'T EXPRESS
THE ABUNDANCE OF LOVE I FEEL
IT'S THE GREATEST GIFT FROM GOD
THAT YOU PICKED ME TO BE YOUR GIRL

I APPRECIATE YOUR LOVE, AND ALL THE
KIND HEARTED THINGS YOU DO,
AND I HAVE POSSESSION OF A
BEAUTIFUL FLOWER..
THAT I WILL SOMEDAY
OFFER TO YOU

THE LUCKIEST GIRL IS
HOW I FEEL, AND I AM SO
ATTRACTED TO YOU
YOUR HEAD,
YOUR TUSH,
YOUR ARMS
AND FEET,
ALL HAVE
A SEXY APPEAL

THANK YOU MY LOVE IS
WHAT I'M TRYING TO SAY,
I LOVE YOU MORE....
AND MORE EACH DAY.


Second Poem Title
bless thy father

God bless my father for every day
he deserves to be blessed I can honestly say

he took my hand to show me the way
while clearing a path for me he'd say..
"Follow this path I clear today, for I'll
never leave you or lead you a stray"

The strength and security I feel with
my father, could never be replaced or
received by no other

And it's this special bond between
my father and me, that will test
his strength when he sets me free

There's nothing in this world more
sacred than he, and the morals
and values he's passed down our
tree

We'll walk down the isle together
one day, he'll give up my hand
then kneel down to pray,
"oh Lord..oh Lord..please show
me A way, for she was my baby
just yesterday".

Third Poem Title
Sweetheart, Sleep Well

I meet you here every night
just to feel you hold me tight
we snuggle to each others form
we keep each other safe and warm

This is the place we share our love
and silently thank the Lord above
for giving us children to kiss goodnight
and seeing us through to mornings light

And this is the place we go to dwell
it is our bed so sweetheart sleep well.

About the Poet
I am an amateur writer that tells my life story through my poetry. My poetry includes experiences from pet pigs to my views of the world I live in,
siblings, to teacher's but somewhere through my journey in my thirty six years the poems that you are about to read has been a personal experience through my eyes at some point. I am a mother of one daughter, and a common law wife of nineteen years to her father, as a younger child I was raised in a christian home, before my mother left my father for his boss dragging three of us children (me being the youngest) through a bitter divorce. While my mother enjoyed the bar life with her new man, I was left at home every night to raise myself , only overseen by this new mans teen boys to which I was taken advantage of by the oldest. It only took a couple of years of watching my mother's drunken brawls with her new choice of life, before I left home all together. At the age of twelve I left home and never went back, I thank god for the friends and their parents who had compassion for me and kept me like their own, I have the skills of being respectful, polite, right from wrong, do unto others as you would want done. But the emotional skills that deal with jealousy, anger, love, hate, sometimes even compassion are just not programed so I struggle daily to learn how to emotionally connect in life..My struggle continues!


Fourth Poem Title
Always On My Mind


I think of you from morning to night
and how this relationship just feels
so right

you are in my thoughts from morning
through lunch, but I already miss you
and it's only brunch

You're the man I can't resist, I hope
you know my love exists
because being away..the days seem
long, but I am here to say, my love
is strong.

In my heart I know you're the best
because my mind re assures me ,
" I have already tried the rest"

So this is my rhyme especially for you
just so you know that my love is true

You have been in my thoughts since
our start, now I hope we end in
"death do we part"

These past few months have went
so fast..I'm here to say..my love
will last
So don't be frightened, your not
alone we have love and friendship
to build our strong home

I have prayed to god in many ways
and you my love were delivered today

When we make love it's so unreal
my mind just wanders...it's such
a thrill.

It's with these vows I give to you
I'll never leave you feeling
lonely or blue.

And in twenty years if you're
still mine, be prepared
I'll read this rhyme..
exactly the way it is written
today, because I'll feel the
exact same way!

So now I'll leave you with one
last note, and you can bet that
it's no joke, if any promise is
guaranteed, I fell in love with
none other than thee .
Robert F
20th Anniversary date: 08-2009

fifth Poem Title
Always Time To Pray


Now I lay me down to sleep
I've recited it all till it was
part of my speech

On to grow up and have
children of my own,
she's learned all the words
now she prays right along

Generation after generation
the words stay the same,
because a verse with such
power needs nothing
changed

So ..say this prayer with
your kids and say it often
for it will open their hearts
and lead them straight
into heaven.

Sixth Poem Title
For the Love of a Sister

I'd like everyone to meet my sister
she's beautiful can't you see
it might just be in the eye of the
beholder, but it makes no
difference to me

We shared a lot when we were
young..the bed included too,
and sis I remember the bond that was
made, because I slept with my
arm around you

Then one night mom said....
" kid go to bed"
and it would be on this night
you see, that I would cry my eyes
out until it hurt because you
weren't going to bed with me

This would be the beginning of
the end of an innocence that
was so carefree,
Because my tears dried up
and washed away the pain
confined in me

"Time will heal a broken heart"..
this saying is a fallacy..
it merely added to the emptiness
of my emotional state of being.

Now we are grown,
separate towns,
separate homes, turns out
we're very different indeed

But sometimes when I'm feeling
life has left me all alone, I
I can feel your arms around me.

From one sister to another...

Seventh Poem Title
Daddy's Girl

Mom's are important,
but daddy's leave an impression,
to a growing little girl
his strength is the obsession.

Sitting on his lap and kissing
his manly cheek,
remembering all the memories
of me dancing on his feet.

Wrapped around his finger like
most of daddy's little girls,
for this bond we've made
will never fade because I am
my daddy's world.